I returned to the thoughts the Holy Father shared on Thérèse of Lisieux in Delexit nos (133-142). She teaches from an evangelical perspective of loving the Heart of Christ. This French Doctor of the Church teaches us to not long for martyrdom. To want martyrdom on its own is to seek self-validation. She tells Sister Marie:

My desires of martyrdom are nothing; they are not what give me the unlimited confidence that I feel in my heart. 

The saint relies on something greater. She relies on her littleness. She said,

what pleases [Jesus] is that he sees me loving my littleness and my poverty, the blind hope that I have in his mercy… That is my only treasure…

Rely on the fact that we are little before God. He can use us as he pleases and this is where our confidence rests.

Even in our littleness, we should never fear a friend so tender. All our sins are nothing but a drop of water in the fiery furnace of his love.